Desperate18, I totally feel your situation. You probably don’t remember this but you had once told me that my hair was darker than yours (I had posted pics of my facial hair). Now I don’t mean to say that my problem is worse than yours-please don’t get me wrong-what I’m trying to say is that I still feel hopeful because I’m trying to make a plan AND implement it.
I have to say this: where there is a will, there is a way. You don’t have to get electrolysis for your whole body to improve your self esteem. Focus on the most necessary/visible areas- For me, these are face (which I bleach-you can also bleach your neck and chest), arms, legs and chest-which I plan to get electrolysis on, entire belly region-for which again bleaching works very well for me. Butts and back- yes I have visible and abundant hair there too but I can’t see them (unless I try) so I’m not so bothered YET. lol. Pubic and axillary region-well everyone has hair there, so that is not a necessity until you have money to spare. Laser is an option if you are ok with it-I’m not for my own reasons- but in my experience it does work for the right candidate.
If money is the problem, save it. Can you save at least 5-7000 USD-that will take care of the majority of your problem with an electrologist who can guarantee you results. It seems like a huge amount and it is huge but I think it’s possible. Are you a college or grad student? If you are, take advantage of the loans you get. Apply for scholarships so that you can allocate your financial resources to serve your needs. Find an internship which pays. I know it’s not easy. I’ve applied and not had success for the most part. Do you have some useful skills? Tutor if you can. And if nothing works while you are still a student, wait till you graduate and find a job.
I think a good electrologist (like the ones on this forum) should be given more priority/consideration than the distance to an electrologist. If you have to go across the border for that, I really think you should.
And if nothing above works, try DIY. Take things into your own hands.
I know it’s easy to give a motivational speech, but in general, everytime I look back in life, I realize how much in control I was/am of the things that happen to me.