At the moment I am having extreme social phobia and am anxiuos.
I am supposed to see some old friends tommorrow and am thinking about cancelling just because I know they will all be thinking what has happened to her face!!! When did she decide to grow a moustache… etc. It is so horrible. I have been crying this evening because it is making me so down that i can’t go out and see the people that I love cos I am scared that they will just think i am a freak.
I am also going travelling soon and should be looking forward to it and be really excited but I am just scared about not being able to meet anyone or have fun, because noone wants to know or hang out with a girl with a moustache. I have a month left before I go and am panicking thinking maybe I can get electrolysis done every week before I go or a couple of laser treatments but then it is not really worth it over the course of a month. Think i am going a bit crazy, think it all stems from these two girls nudging each other and I overheard them say look at her with the moustache just in the street a couple of days ago. When I have asked friends or family about it though they are always too polite to say anything, but i know what I am looking at in the mirror.
I usually wax about every 3 weeks, but it is just looking really bad at the moment and growing back so dark that I am now bleaching it as well. I have always wanted electrolysis or laser but just don’t have the money.
This is a bit of a garbled message, but it is how my head is at the moment. I just wanna feel normal and stop all this negative thought about myself !!!