I’ve had a mustache since I was maybe 12 or 13. I started growing chin hair when I was maybe 20 or 21, and over the next few years it spread and became more noticeable. I would stay home for a few days so I could grow it out long enough to pluck it all out, and the rest of the time I shaved daily. That went on for a few years, and then I decided to do something more about it. I went to a laser hair removal place (American Laser Centers) where I was told I was a prime candidate. I paid for the package, and for the next 3 years got laser treatments every 4-10 weeks. I faithfully followed their schedule, never went out in the sun. I saw reduction after every appointment, but in the end it just kept coming back. I stopped going because my time I had paid for ran out, and I just didn’t have the funds to continue, especially if the treatment wasn’t working. In the next few years, the facial growth got worse and worse. Oddly enough, my upper lip area still remains nearly completely hair free, the only place the laser seems to have been effective. But everything else has gotten darker and thicker and denser. Since stopping laser, I have mostly shaved, on a daily basis. But every 2-4 months since about a year after I stopped laser, I have grown it out and plucked it all out. Painful. Takes forever. Caused ingrowns sometimes, but it was better than the noticeable regrowth and 5 o clock shadow.
I decided about 3 months ago that I couldn’t keep living like this. I want to cut my hair in a short hair cut, but I’m afraid I’ll feel like a dude if I do. I’m sick of thinking about this daily. I’m sick of the razor burn. I’m sick of feeling self conscious about it. I’m sick of wondering if my husband hates what I look like. I’m sick of wondering if that’s what people notice when they’re talking to me. I’m sick of looking bad and feeling ugly and like there’s something wrong with me. I’m just sick of all of it.
So I stopped plucking. And I’ve met with 2 electrologists. I had my first longish appointment (an hour, I can’t really afford more time at this point) about 4 days ago. I’m scared that this is going to take forever, mostly from a financial standpoint. I know there’s very possibly a hormonal issue going on behind the scenes that could be causing it, but I don’t have insurance and don’t know how we’d pay for both the hair removal (which would need to get done either way) and the testing too (which may show nothing at all or send me down the road of messing with hormones when my body seems to me mostly working well at this point, except for the facial hair). I’m thin, pretty much always have been, and have had regular periods for as long as I can remember. I’m hairier than your average female in other places too. My dad was super hairy, not sure if that could explain it.
I’ll work on getting some pics up when I can figure it out, having trouble with it . . .