I can’t stand this anymore. No one knows, and anyway I really doubt my parents would fork out any electrolysis money.
I’m sick of shaving my stomach and feeling the prickly growth return in a few hours and looking at the obvious razor burn. I’m tired of obsessively plucking.
I can’t keep doing this. It’s become an obsession, and I keep finding new places with disgusting long black hair. And I keep seeing other girls who are completely hairless.
I’m tired of crying over feeling ugly.
I’m a kid. I shouldn’t feel like this. I should be able to go to the beach with my friends and not hide myself. I want to wear cute tank tops. For God’s sake I am aspiring to be a fashion designer and I can’t even wear my own clothes.
I’m scared my boyfriend will find out and find me revolting. I’m not healthy.
I don’t know what to do. I’ve delt with this for so long.
The earliest I remember thinking there was something wrong with me was about the 7th grade, when my mom’s friend’s daughter came over to go swimming. I noticed that I had a lovely black line of hair descending from my ribcage and passed my bellybutton, and she had nothing. I thought that everyone had that and they just shaved it or something so I always dismissed it. But everything became more evident as I got older and now, finally I’m 17 and I’m cracking. I think I’m borderline BDD (body dismorphic disorder) and it’s only getting worse.
I know the first thing my mom will suggest is counseling if I bring this up with her. But I know counseling will do nothing, the only thing that can help me is for the hair to BE GONE FOREVER please. <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> That or sasquatch becomes America’s Next Top Model.
I’m sorry, this is all so scattered and random, I’m just really frustrated and upset right now and needed to vent.